Thanksgiving 2007

To be honest, I wasn't so excited about Thanksgiving this year. Since dad has been sick, I really didn't want to spend five long hours in the car traveling to Arkansas. However, on Wednesday, we loaded up my younger sister's car and took off towards my cousin's house. I was in a pretty bad mood for the first three hours of the trek. What bothered me the most was that my parents smell like old people - seriously! You know the old people smell where there's just too much fragrance in the air. I think it's because olfactory sensation decreases, but it just reminded me that my parents aren't the super fantastic, pretty much perfect, invincible people I grew up thinking they were.

The weekend got even better when my aunt decided to show me all of her medications. That was bad enough until I realized I'm on one of the same meds she's on - for hypertension. It was one of those moments when you think...life is just flying by. And to make that scenario even worse, I refilled that prescription at the pharmacy today and they gave me the biggest container I have ever gotten my pills in - basically it's an oversized reminder of my impending demise that sits on my bathroom counter.

The food was good. I ate a lot, but not too much. And it was good to see my cousins. Thinking about aging and dying does stir feelings of anxiety for me. However, to an extent, it makes me want to live life even more deliberately. It has been said many times: "one cannot live until one begins to think about dying."

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