Surgery...on again

I got my insurance stuff straightened out. My surgery is scheduled for Friday at 10:30 a.m. They're going to have a "going away" party for my tumors tomorrow at my school. We eat cake for anything! And I also get a day off on Friday...woohoo!

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Sunday ramblings

Today's worship went well. Here's the order of worship that we followed:

Bless the Name of Jesus
Blessed Be Your Name
You're the One

Welcome/Prayer

He Is Wonderful
You Are Holy

Jeremiah 9:23-24

Great Is the Lord
Be with Me, Lord
Sweet Will of God

"Who Holds the Power?"

There's a Stirring
Why Did My Savior Come to Earth?

Communion

Jesus, Keep Me Near the Cross
Make Me More Free

Prayer

Several phrases from the songs we sang stood out to me as we worshipped this morning. From "Be With Me, Lord" the following words hit me hard:

Be with me Lord, when loneliness o'er-takes me,
When I must weep amid the fires of pain,
And when shall come the hour of "my departure"
For "worlds unknown," O Lord, be with me then.

I have been struggling with loneliness lately. This song reminded me where to take that loneliness.

From "Sweet Will of God" I loved the following words:

Sweet will of God, still fold me closer
Till I am wholly lost in Thee

Can you imagine that? To be "wholly lost" in God! What would that be like? The image that brings to my mind is something I long for - being enveloped by His presence.

Our minister also reminded us of how God is in control always, although we sometimes think we are the rulers of our lives. Overall, I came away from worship thinking about a lot of different things and praising God for being in control.

On a very different note, I cleaned my bathroom tonight. Can you guess how long it had been since I cleaned my tub? It would gross most people out. Anyway, all I have to say is that it is now white again...and I really must hate studying because I cleaned instead of reading. It's time for me to be done with school.

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Happy Thanksgiving

Just wanted to write and wish everyone who checks in on me every once in a while a Happy Thanksgiving. I hope you have a great holiday.

And here's a question for you: Do you believe in Near Death Experiences? Do you believe that people who have "almost" died see a light, feel warmth and love, etc.? This all has to do with a dissertation I might be writing. However, I have to admit, I'm a skeptic. What do y'all think?

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surgery cancelled

Insurance people are mean. Even when I try to be nice, they're rude. Anyway, I've got to get a couple of things straightened out before I have the tumors removed. And I thought I was going to get a day off on Friday...oh well.

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I'm going to lose some weight

Thanks to everyone who responded to my last post - both here and by other means. I really do appreciate all the words of encouragement. I am grateful that I'm surrounded by all of you.

So, I went to schedule myself for surgery this afternoon. I think I will be going under the knife next Friday. I've got these two growths on my back (one right under my left shoulder and one on my left shoulder blade) that I'm going to have removed. I know what you're thinking - gross. They're a couple of lipomas or fat tumors. Anyway, the surgeon said I'm going to have to go to the OR because the one on my shoulder blade is too big to be removed in the office - it's about 7 cm in diameter. Let the Quasimodo jokes begin. I've already named these tumors Cheech and Chong. I usually say that or that the bigger one is my unborn twin. They've been with me for a couple of years now, but I think it's time for them to go. I asked the surgeon if I could see them when he takes them out. I also requested a cool scar. I think he thinks I was joking, but I was serious about both of those requests.

My older sister is afraid I won't be able to lead singing the Sunday following the surgical procedure - it's baby dedication Sunday, and my nephew is being dedicated. I think I should be fine. We'll see. I may have to lead singing from a gurney hooked up to an IV, but I'll be there.

The Harry Potter scar would be cool...what do y'all think?

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